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R: Om, Namah Shivaya. Om, shanti, shanti, shanti, om, peace.
Hello. It’s good to be with you again, to see your lovely smiling faces. Happy face.
Put on a happy face.
The whole universe is in a state of flux. Nothing is solid. Nothing is permanent, nothing exists, the way it appears. Your body is a miniature universe. Your body is a replica of the entire universe. Your body is a microcosm of the macrocosm. This being so, then there’s nothing permanent inside of you. You’re not a permanent being. You’re not meant to be a permanent being. You’re also in a state of flux. When you begin to realize this about yourself, you leave things alone. You stop fighting life. You stop fighting yourself, for you realize change will come along soon anyway, and take you away from here and put you somewhere else. You’ll drop your body. You’ll become something else completely, something different. So while you’re here, why fight? Why be upset? Why have problems? Only the person who believes he is going to live for ever tries to mold the world into his way of thinking, or her way of thinking.
When you look at the tiniest thing in life, a little insect, a little insect has its life span, maybe a couple of hours, maybe a couple of days. A little insect does not want to live for ever. It can’t even think like that. It goes along with the flow of life. It knows nothing about birth and death. When the time comes, it drops itself, and it is finished. When you look at a higher animal, a dog or a cat, they live approximately 13, 14, 15, 16, 17 years, and then they just let go, and they go on with it, to bigger and better things. They’re not thinking, “I’ve got to take care of my body so it will live forever. I’ve got to eat the right food. I’ve got to eat vitamin pills. I’ve got to do certain exercises all the time, so I’ll last forever.”
The person of wisdom realizes that no matter what they do to themselves, they’re going to go, just the same as everybody else, sooner or later. They may prolong their life a couple of years. Big deal. You didn’t come into this world to hold on to your life. The truth is you didn’t come to this world. You’re not even here. But you think you are so we have to talk about these things. You think you’re somebody. You think you’re something. You think you’re an important person. You think you matter. You believe the world can’t do without you. Vanity, vanity, all is vanity. Our ego’s are so big, we’re trying to make a mark for ourselves. We say, “When I leave this planet, I want people to remember me.” They’ll forget you, don’t worry. They may remember you a couple of days, a couple of hours. Then they go on with their life and you’re all forgotten.Everything must change, everything. When we look into the lives of planets, galaxies, they too keep changing, changing, changing. Nothing is forever. A tree may live a 100 years, 200 years, but it has to go. A mountain seems to be here forever, because of our thinking of time, what time means to us. We therefore think a mountain is there forever.
But in universal terms it’s there for a while, 1000 years, 500 years, whatever. And it crumbles. Changes into something else. The galaxies keep being born, keep being destroyed.
Everything comes and goes. And soon the whole universe is dissolved. Maybe it will be 250 million years. The whole universe comes to an end. It’s all finished. Then there is only boundless space. There’s nothing but boundless space. Yet, does boundless space sit in the lap of consciousness. The first manifestation of consciousness is boundless space. When we come to consciousness, we have nothing to say about that, for our finite minds cannot grasp it. It is something so rare, so extreme, so mind-boggling, we can never understand what consciousness is. Yet it is the substratum of all existence. We can never think what it is with our minds.
We can never understand what it is. It’s impossible. This is why, when you get to terms like consciousness, you keep silent. There is nothing to say after that. But then somebody like me comes along and tells you that you are consciousness. You are the consciousness that we cannot understand. You are the consciousness that is the substratum of all existence. You are that consciousness which is so profound, so far out, so so, that you can’t even discuss it. There are no words to discuss it with. You cannot describe it. You can’t feel it. You can’t taste it. You can’t smell it. You can’t hear it. But there’s something out there called consciousness. Now man is the only type of instrument that can express the consciousness. In other words, we can discover this consciousness, become this consciousness, and be this consciousness for ever. Our true nature is this consciousness. This is what we really are. This is what we’ve always been. And this is what we’ll always be.
So, we get back to us. Our mission is really to transcend the world and become consciousness, our true Self. This is the only thing we have to do on this planet. There’s nothing else we came here for, nothing else. This is it.
When you get involved in your projects, in your work, in your life, it’s really a waste of time, it really is, for you do not come here for that. You came here to know yourself. Only discover yourself and realize that you never even came here. There’s no place to come from. Where would you come from? To be here you have to come from someplace.
These are all words, words, words, words. There are so many words. Yet let me just say this. If you ever taste just a glimpse of consciousness, you’d be so happy, so blissful, so at peace with yourself and life, you could never understand what you would become. If you could only taste a glimpse of this consciousness, you’d never think of hurting anyone.
You’d never think of going to war. You’d never think this is mine, this is mine, this belongs to me. There would never be a you and a me. There would only be one. And that one is everything and everybody, and that’s just a glimpse of consciousness.
It’s so beautiful. So wonderful. So grand. This is why people in a class like this, in a teaching like this, should really be interested in nothing but this understanding, and unfold, and become totally free. This should be the only thing we should be interested in, nothing else. Yet, as we’re interested in becoming totally free, we will be led and guided to our right place, and do the things we have to do on this earth. Something will take care of us. While we’re trying to find ourselves, while we’re trying to find consciousness, which always exists, was never lost, we will do our thing, whatever we came here to do. It’s sort of difficult to understand how you can be searching for consciousness on one hand and continuing your life or your humanhood on another hand. Yet this is exactly what happens. But your life becomes beautiful. When I say your life becomes beautiful, I don’t mean that problems will not come to you, but you will not see them as problems any longer. There’ll be no problem that you see, for you will be seeing yourself.
Always remember that your life is like a mirror. A mirror cannot see itself, but reflects everything it sees. So what you really are, in your life, you’re reflecting all over the place. If you feel hurtable, then things will happen to you to hurt you. Whatever you feel, you attract more and more of the same. You’re always seeing your own image. This is why it is so foolish to me when people get excited, when there’s man’s inhumanity to man going on, there’s conflict, chaos, confusion. These people only see themselves. Where in truth there’s only one Self. That Self is consciousness. It’s all the same. There’s not yourself and myself. There is only the Self. And you’re absolutely free. You’re free to choose.
I know some of you are saying, “Well, Robert always tells us that life is preordained, so how can it be free?” It is preordained to that person who keeps responding to the world, the person who responds to the world, to the effects of this world. As a person goes onward, and onward and onward, takes on more bodies, keeps taking on more bodies, keeps becoming more human and never becomes enlightened.
It is only when you realize that you’ve got the freedom to let go. This freedom you have, the freedom to let go, that’s not being hurtable. The freedom to choose consciousness over the world and things of this world. That’s the freedom we all have. We have this freedom. But if we forget about it and we become worldly, we have no freedom. In that case everything is preordained, predestined. So whether you want your life to be predestined or totally free, it’s up to you. It’s your choice. An animal doesn’t have this choice. An insect doesn’t have this choice. A tree doesn’t have this choice. A mountain doesn’t have this choice. You have this choice. What are you doing with it?
As long as you have feelings, of pain, disharmony, you feel distraught, you feel something is wrong some place, you’re making a choice, right then and there. You’re saying, “I’m going to feel hurt. I’m going to feel sorry for myself. I’m going to believe somebody is trying to do something to me, that life is bad, that it’s everyone for themselves. We have to step on someone before they step on us.” This will be our thinking. This will be our way of living. And if we live this way, if we think this way, if we act this way, then life is preordained for us, predestined. And as you sow, so shall you reap. What goes around comes around.
Yet you have to realize you’re the cause of everything. You are the cause of everything that happens to you. There’s no one to blame but you. If you have certain people in your life you can’t get along with, your family, your relatives, whatever, you have purposely attracted these people before you came to this earth, and these people attracted you, for this is their karma and your karma, and you have to work it out. If you keep reacting the same way you always do, you will not work it out, and will get deeper enmeshed into it, and you will come back again, and again, and again, in different bodies, until you get it right. We can really say that the universe is a university to educate the soul.
Now why am I telling you all these things? Because there is nothing else to do.
You know there’s no soul, there’s no universe, there’s no body, there’s no mind, there’s no karma, there’s no reincarnation, there’s no liberation, there’s no delusion, and yet we discuss all of these topics we’re talking about. I guess by discussing it you’ll realize it doesn’t exist. If we didn’t discuss it, you wouldn’t know what doesn’t exist. After all, you have to know what doesn’t exist, so you won’t feel good, you won’t feel right about it. It would make troubles, it would make problems in the world. To find out what doesn’t exist.
Try acting like a God, instead of a human being. In other words when you come into a predicament in your life, before you get involved in it, say to yourself, “Now what would God do in a case like this?” And since God doesn’t exist, there’s nothing to do. So why are we discussing the subject? Because you want to hear me talk.
Everything is beautiful. Everyone is a God. Everyone doesn’t exist. And yet here we are, looking at each other. What do you see when you look at each other? Most of us see another person. But is there really another person? You know when you go to sleep, you dream at night, the dream becomes like a big bubble, and the bubbles contain the whole universe. Just like this, people, place and things. Situations ensue. People are born.
People die. People get old. People get young. It all happens in a dream, in the bubble. But where did the bubble come from, the dream bubble? Where else, it came out of yourself.
You’re having the dream.
But listen to this. This is a miracle, if you think about it. You are creating the whole dream world which you dream about. You create everything. As far as you’re concerned, if you are in that dream, you’re going to stick up for your rights, and you’ll not believe it’s a dream. If I come into your dream and I tell you, “Don’t concern yourself with this thing.
Don’t worry about this. It’s not important. Stop feeling hurt. Stop feeling confused. Stop feeling something is wrong.” You will look at me and you’ll say, “Well Robert, if you were experiencing this, you’d be hurt too. You don’t know what I’m going through, the hell I’m going through.” And then I tell you, “But it’s only a dream. Can’t you see this. It’s a dream.”
And you throw rocks at me, and chase me away. “What do you mean it’s a dream. I’m going through it. Can’t you see I’m bleeding. This is not a dream. This is real.” Then you
wake up. What happened to everything? Where did everything go? It’s gone. It never existed.
But then you exist, the dreamer. The dreamer exists, or does he? Who is this dreamer? Where does this dreamer come from? You have awakened into this world and know yourself as a body. Remember, in the dream world you were also a body, weren’t you? Just like this. There was no difference. You were a moving, fighting body, in the dream. And no one will be able to tell you that you are dreaming. No one will ever be able to convince you of this, while you’re dreaming. But you exist in this dream.
Now you awaken and you also exist. And I tell you this is all a dream, and you won’t believe me. I tell you you’re dreaming right now. You’re dreaming the mortal dream.
But you refuse to accept what I say. You refuse to believe me. You may tell me in one breath, “I believe you Robert, I know it’s a dream,” but as soon as you go outside, the first person that bumps into you, you become angry. So how can this be a dream? You’re feeling the world. As long as you’re feeling the world, you believe this is not a dream. You believe the world is real.
So you have this choice again. To realize the world is a dream, to leave everything alone, to be at peace with yourself, and to be at peace with others, and just observe the world without reacting to it. Or you can get completely and fully involved in this world, totally involved in the world, trying to make things happen, trying to make yourself popular, make yourself good, bad, go through all kinds of experiences, and always fighting for survival. This is the choice you’ve got. This is the choice you have. This is the choice that you have to work with. What will you do with it?
And so Sages have appeared in our lives, when we’re ready, who have told us what to do. They have told us, “Leave the world alone.” Stop fighting it. Go deep within yourself. Focus on yourself. Find out who you really are, either by listening to the discourse and awakening to the words, which can happen sometimes, or going deep within and leaving the world alone, not thinking of this world, but seeing yourself as the world, or practicing self-inquiry, which becomes beautiful when you know what you’re doing. It becomes boring if you do it mechanical. By simply asking yourself, “What am I? What the hell am I? What am I doing here?” as Ross Perot’s vice-president says. He got up there and said, “Who am I? What am I doing here?” Perhaps he knows something we don’t know.
You only have to ask yourself those questions. “What am I doing here? What am I?
Am I this person? I can’t be this person, for I’m not the same person I was ten years ago, fifteen years ago. When I was first conceived I was no bigger than a little pinhead, and now I’ve grown into a lovely lady, a lovely man. Soon I’ll get older. I’ll turn into an old lady, an old man. So how can this be me? How can this person, so-to-speak, who keeps changing, changing, changing constantly be really me?” Ask yourself.
Ask yourself, “How did I get here? Who made me? What am I?” You keep asking yourself these questions over and over again, and something will give. For one day you will awaken to the fact that you’re asking, “Who am I?” You’re not asking “Who is me?“You’re asking, “Who am I?” In other words, you’re wondering who the I is. See what you do, the discovery you come to? Who am I? Who is this I that goes through experience after experience after experience? Who is this I? You stop identifying with the small I, which is the I-thought. This is a big step in your evolution when you can do this. Most people do it the wrong way. They keep saying, “Who am I?” and they’re thinking that they are I. But you’re not I. You’re not this I-thought that I am referring to. You’re not the small I. You are not that.
Yet you have been living on this I all of your life. When you discover who this I is, you will discover freedom. But the first step is realizing that you are not I, and realizing that it is I who has all the problems, not you. In other words, you’ve got to come to the conclusion, I feels hurt, I feels upset, I feels uncomfortable, I feels unwanted, unloved. Not me, but I. Not me, but the I. And now you have a whole new ball game. You’re beginning to see that the I is not you. The secret is to discover where the I came from. If this I is not me, where did it come from? Who gave it birth? Then you sneakily follow it. You start to follow the I where it came from. You will soon realize something very interesting, that the I is very spontaneous. It comes in a flash, all of a sudden. Yet you can see it. You can feel it.
You can watch it.
As an example, early in the morning when you first get up, the first few seconds when you get up, you are at peace with yourself and the world. There’s no world that exist for you. In between the waking and the sleeping state, when you first open your eyes, those few seconds, there’s no I, and you’re in perfect peace. You don’t know a thing about your problems. You have no idea about the world. Yet you open your eyes and you look at the world. For those first few seconds, there’s absolutely nothing disturbing you. If you have cancer, it’s not there. No matter what the problem is, it’s not there in those first few seconds.
But all of a sudden the I becomes active. And now you say, “I feel my bones aching. I feel I’m hungry. I want breakfast I have to get up to go to work. I have to do this. I have to do that.” The I has taken over your life. This little I, this insignificant little nothing has taken over your entire life and existence, and you’re going along with it, how foolish.
You believe in what it says and what it’s doing, because you agree with it. The I says, “I have a headache.” Instead of saying to the I, “You have a headache but I don’t,” you believe that this I is you, and your head begins to hurt. You have made this I your God. In this way you suffer like you do. That’s the only reason. There is no other reason. So you’re going to get really into this. You say to yourself, “I’m going to find out what’s going on in my life. I’m going to follow that I. I’m going to trace that I to its source.” So next morning comes. You’re ready for it. You’re alerted. You know you’re going to get up, there’ll be no I, then the I will come in all of a sudden. So you watch. You get up in the morning, you’re prepared and you feel the I coming from your heart, up the spine into your brain. So you have discovered where the I comes from.
Everything I am sharing with you can be discovered and practiced. You can practice this. You will see that I’m saying the truth. It may not take you one day, or two days or a week. It may take you some time to do this. But if you keep watching in the morning when you get up, you will discover that the I comes from the heart, the spiritual heart in the right side of the chest, goes through the spine, up into the brain, and then you become a slave of the I. The I takes you through the day and through life. But now that you discover where it comes from, you begin to see that when I go to sleep, it reverses itself. It goes the other way. For when you go to sleep, just before you fall asleep, those few seconds before you fall asleep, you’re in the same consciousness you where when you woke up in the morning, before you awakened, and became fully aware of the I. You are in the same place, the same position. But this time it’s reversing, going the other way. The I is going from the brain, down the spine, back into the heart.
This is called tracing the I. Following the I-thought. Now you’ve got something to work with. Now you’ve got something to do, keep you busy, keep you out of mischief.
You begin to follow that I. When you are able to follow that I into the heart, in other words, when you are consciously in your waking state able to follow the I back into the heart, you will become free and liberated. This is your homework. This is what you have to do. All of you have to start doing this, have to practice this. Discovering the I, where it came from, tracing it back into the heart center. When it goes back into the heart center, and you’re conscious, you’re liberated, for there’s no more I. It is the I that has been keeping you in bondage, the I. Follow this I. Do it, and become free. Peace.
I’m going to start playing some different kinds of music. If you like this music, let me know and I will play more of it. If you don’t like it see Lee and punch him out.
(Robert plays music)
SV: I was laughing and laughing and then when I opened my eyes I saw two and a half people smiling too. (laughter) It takes some time to get used to it too because most of the people are used to the…?
R: Anybody want to punch Lee out? (laughter) (SH: Yeah you got it.) It is now time to play stump the guru. When you come here on Sunday, if you don’t remember write a question down. You all attack me and throw me out the window. (SH: Let’s do it.) (Q - Mary reads, A - Robert answers)
Q: First one is, can you describe a devotee.
A: Humility, total humility. A devotee is a being who has come through many lifetimes with a Master. He or she is totally different than a disciple or a seeker. A devotee doesn’t want to think about anything else anymore. But the truth, the teaching, that is all they care about. They have finished running around the world. Finished going into this teaching, that teaching. Going and seeing Baba-Loo on Sunday and Baba-Hari on Wednesday and Baba on Thursday… (laughter) (SH: And Robert Adams on…) (laughter) A devotee is one of those who has found what they want and that is all they want. I always give the example of Ramana Maharshi and the person pulling the fan. One of his devotees was Jo, he was pulling the fan for thirty five years. He sat there and pulled the fan of Ramana. He wanted nothing, cared for nothing. In the West it sounded like a stupid person.
But it’s far from being stupid. One day he was pulling the fan, he was about 80 years old and he dropped dead. And Ramana looked and he said, he will not come back again, he’s totally realized. So the West has not had a good understanding of a devotee.
Remember there are many teachers, teachers all over the place. But where can you find a good devotee. So I would say a quality of devotee is total humility, total love, unbounded love, total joy in what they’re doing. They are not stupid people. In the Western mind they might appear to be sort of stupid. For they care about nothing but serving the Master, taking care of the teacher, that is all they care about. Maybe they know something we don’t. Something to think about. So a quality is humility, total humility. Nothing like I want this or I want that or I want o become this or I want to become that. They have totally surrendered to the Self in the form of the guru. There is a lot to this. Next question.
Q: Why does the higher Self rush at us when we stand up for it? And what is happening to us when we stand up for it?
A: You can sit down for it, you don’t have to stand up. The higher Self is your real nature. That is what you really are. So naturally when you become still long enough, when you stop shouting and making things happen and wanting things and doing things, when you have become totally still long enough and leave whatever happens, happen, then you become the real Self. That seems to rush at you because it is unfolding as you and when you are quiet, you become that. Simple. All your job is to become quiet. Become still.
Nothing to prove, nothing to do, nothing to fight. You leave the world alone. Everything will take care of itself. You don’t worry any longer. And the Self will rush into your arms and you will embrace and live happily ever after.
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Q: …is that because my belief system attracts a punishment? Or because karma is trying to clean my slate quickly so I can be balanced with the universe, God again quickly?
A: There is no punishment you’re not a sinner, you have never been a sinner, you have divine essence. It appears sometimes that when you get into this teaching things become progressively worse. And this is very good. Because it means you have so much stuff inside of you, so many ideas, so many beliefs, so many concepts, so much dogma, opinions. As these things are destroyed you don’t feel good about it because it has taken you away from where you’ve been all your life. It’s pulling the rug from under you. It’s taken away all of your toys, all of your objects that you’ve loved so much. The things that you were holding onto. This only happens when you’re really sincere. When you’re really sincere you have so much faith and so much strength from your sincerity, that you will look at everything happening to you and smile and laugh. It will not matter to you one iota. For you will know that everything is happening for a divine purpose. There is nobody to hurt you. There is no power in this universe that can hurt. There is nothing that can ever hurt you, nothing. For there is only God which is I consciousness, Sat-Chit-Ananda, the reality is the only thing that exists, Brahman. Which is beyond concepts, beyond knowledge, beyond anything we’ve ever known. It permeates the whole universe.
It is in everything and everybody. When you become still you become closer to Brahman.
You become free and liberated as you let go. So the true disciple that comes into Advaita Vedanta will not react to things any longer, no matter what happens. For they will have no fear, all fear has left them.
They will not believe that something bad has happened to them and they’ve got to straighten it out and make it good. All fear will be gone. You will do what has to be done, without fear. As you’re able to do this then the next time the same thing happens or something similar they will laugh in its face and it will disappear and they will never have to go through it again. But if you react to it with fear, animosity, hate, vengeance, you may appear to win sometimes but you’ll have to go through it again and again and again and again and again and again and again. So you stop being vengeful, you stop being hateful then everything will stop and you will be yourself. Next question.
Q: After coming to your satsang for the past three months, I feel better and my life runs nicely. But I didn’t come here to feel better or more successful, I came to realize the Self, help, help. I don’t want to be trapped in feeling good and successful but without self-realization.
A: Who tells you to feel this way? What comes to you is part of your training. Is part of the experiencers you’ve been wanting to be free, totally unhindered. So feeling good, enjoy it, feel good, don’t think it’s bad. Feel wonderful but go further. As you keep going beyond feeling good, beyond experiences, you’ll go higher and higher and higher.
You will raise yourself to a high level of consciousness and when you are here feeling good will disappear. The idea what is good, what is bad will all disappear out of your system. You’ll be ready for the final step into liberation.
So you don’t say you didn’t come here to feel good. Feeling the way you’re describing is part of the process. As you go onward with it you will feel better and better until your ego explodes and blows up and disappears out of your system totally and completely. So this is a good sign that you’re feeling good and things are better for you in your life. Enjoy it while you can.
Q: Dear Robert, what are you constantly aware of?
A: Nothing. What is there to be aware of? There is absolutely nothing to be aware of. If I were aware of something there would have to be an entity to be aware of it. There has to be an ego or a mind or something that is aware of something but there is nothing to be aware of. For I’ve got plenty of nothing and nothings plenty for me. (laughter) (SB: You mean you know it all?) Nothing. (SB: You are a know it all.) Nothing. Next question.
Q: Who (dash) what (underlined twice) am I? (a little tiny i) A: Who dash what am I? You are the little tiny “i” scribbled on the paper, it’s you.
You are the little eady, beady tiny little I. (students laugh) That is what you are. You put it down yourself so that is what you must be. You should have left the dash where it says I, you know what I mean. What you have to do is get rid of the who, get rid of the am, get rid of the I then there is nothing and then you’ll be free. Get rid of the whole thing. Hold onto nothing. Next case.
Q: What is it like for you when you meet another self-realized guru or person?
A: We slap each other on the face. (students burst out laughing) What is there to do, there is nothing to do. I do nothing. If the other person’s realized they’ll do nothing either. So they’ll look at each other, say nothing to each other and go their own way. So there is nothing to do, nothing to say. Next case.
Q: After a satsang where the spirit has been for me very strong, I found myself unable to visit with satsangees and converse unless they speak from their high self. Mundane talk or joking around feels irreligious to me or insulting the presence I feel within. Yet I see you joking and talking mundanely, am I some kind of a phony? Do I have holiness and mundaneness all confused? I actually feel prevented after a strong satsang… (unclear to read) …from a body, it is not a mental decision. I would be happy to socialize at a special level without body awareness.
A: Okay you’re not a phony but you’ve got a big ego. Because it’s your ego that makes you think all these things and say all these things. When your ego is gone it makes no difference who you associate with. You don’t see the things you’re seeing now. You don’t see this person is like this, this person is mundane and I’m high. I know something this person doesn’t so I won’t have anything to do with this person. On the contrary, the whole world becomes your family. You are not looking for special things in people. Because you’re seeing yourself you’re seeing them as special. In other words you’re seeing yourself as an enlightened being then you’ll see everybody else the same way. So there are no special people. We don’t associate with special people, saying, “This person is this way and that person is that way. I can’t talk to these people because I feel elated, I feel high.”
That is all ego. When you get rid of your ego you’ll be one like everybody else. Because doesn’t all of these people come out of you? These people come out of you, where would they come from? They’re your creation. The whole universe is your creation.
So if you’re looking down at somebody, you’re looking down at yourself. When you have evolved to the place where there are no others you will always be happy. For there is only one, that one is Brahman, that one is you, your Self, you are that one. Do not think of high and low, good and bad. Those are terms for the human being with ego. If you are working on your ego to get rid of it, you’ll feel comfortable with everybody. It doesn’t mean you have to live with certain people forever. And then you’ll have a good word to say to everybody, you’ll be happy with everybody. You will always feel wonderful inside and nothing will disturb you. So forget about class, high class, low class, in between class, no class, (laughter) just be yourself. That’s it Robert.
Do we have any announcements?
SE: I have three transcripts that if you want to make copies of. I’ll let you have them now and you can bring back five or ten copies. Anybody interested making some copies?
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