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R: It’s wonderful to be with you once again. I love you with all my heart, unconditionally just the way you are. All is well. There are no mistakes. Everything is in its right place. Everything is the way it’s supposed to be.
There was once a man who was training his son and he went outside and put his son on a step and he said, “Now jump into daddy’s arms and daddy will catch you.” The son did so. And he put his son on the second step and he said, “Jump into daddy’s arms.
Daddy will catch you.” And the son did so. And he put him on the third step and said the same thing, only this time he didn’t catch him and the kid fell and hurt his legs. And the dad looked down at him and he said, “Son never trust anybody, even your father.”
Now what does this have to do with anything? Absolutely nothing. (students laugh) This story is not a metaphor, it’s not a parable, it’s nothing! (students laugh) It’s worthless, doesn’t mean a thing, yet you listen to it with great interest as if it will enlighten you. But let’s see what we can do with that story. The son represents pure intelligence that comes into the world as a body, and is totally innocent. The father represents the ego. The son comes into this world, pure, innocent, as pure intelligence, and begins to lose that, by looking at the world, looking at the ego. The ego tells the son, “Look at this world, it’s yours. You can have anything you want. You can do anything you want, this beautiful world. Believe in me, the ego. There are riches in this world beyond your imagination.
Look at the beautiful trees, the sky, the clouds, the flowers. Everything is beautiful.”
And the son being young, without any experience, begins to identify with those things but just because everything is going smoothly and rightly the ego pulls the rug from under the son and the son has negative experiences. Starts to fret, worries, become upset. It forgets about itself being pure intelligence. It forgets about itself being innocent.
But now it begins to identify itself with an ego and it says, “I want this. I desire this. I’ll feel upset if I don’t have this. I want this person. I want this toy. I feel hurt. I feel alone. I feel happy. I feel sad.” He has come into full swing as an ego.
This is what happens to us. When we first came into this world we came from pure intelligence, absolute reality and while we’re still babies we took on this body we still had this innocence, this sweet innocence within us. This great beauty and joy, this pureness. But as we became programmed in the world we forgot about this and we became human and here we are today full blown human beings with the I dominating. The I desires this, the I desires that. The I is full of desires and we try to pacify the I by giving it what it wants. Consequently sometimes we’re very happy, sometimes we become miserable when we do not get what we want or what we think we should have. We have forgotten about our divine heritage. We have forgotten that we are divine intelligence, pure awareness, we identify completely with the body. And you know this is true.
Look at your life only for today and see the desires you had, the wants you had, the needs you had, the things that you think you want enough to have. See how miserable this makes you when you do not achieve what you want. Then you become totally body conscious. Believing that you are a body-mind phenomena. Yet as we go through the vicissitudes of life, some of us because of previous experience because something happened to us begin to realize, “This is not all there is. This is not what life really is. Who am I? Where do I really come from? What is my mission in life? What am I here to do?” We keep asking ourselves these questions and the answer is all within the self. We have all the answers within us. Yet we keep searching, going from pillar to post, running around the world, seeking answers, seeking teachers, seeking wisdom when all of the time it has been within yourself. You have been what you are seeking all of this time, yet you keep on seeking. As if some force has made you go seek something that you’ve lost. When you totally surrender, when you sort of give up searching and seeking, then things begin to happen and not before. As long as you keep seeking you will keep on seeking. There will be no end to it.
You have to put an end to it yourself.
You have to sort of say to yourself, “What I have been seeking has been seeking me.” There is no more going out and going in, going out and going in. There is only that which is, and I am that. You become more peaceful, more loving, kinder. You begin to understand that there is only one life and that life is pure intelligence and that life is your life now. There is nothing to analyze, nothing to discover, nothing to really do, but to be yourself just the way you are. There is no one around that can tell you anything. There is no book around that can teach you anything. You are the one right now. You are the one you’ve always been looking for. You are that! Right this minute, right now, incomprehensible beauty and joy. That bliss that you hear about if yours. It is yours right this moment.
Yet you appear to be struggling. What are you struggling for? It is your mind that has been programmed that tells you that you have to struggle, that you have to fight, that you have to survive, those are ideas that have been printed in your mind, you’ve been programmed. You believe you are a person with rights, you like to stick up for your rights, fight for your rights. This is all the mind, it’s all the ego that tells you these things. You have no rights. What are these rights anyway? You can always read the bill of rights. It will tell you all kinds of interesting things. But it is something beyond all of these thoughts. Something beyond all of your desires and wants and needs, feelings, emotions and that something beyond it is you! The real you! You are the ocean and the bubbles your body. Bodies come, bodies go continuously, but you remain as the ocean not as a bubble on the ocean. To do this you have to think about these things everyday. Instead of getting up in the morning and thinking about your work or thinking about the clothes you’re going to wear or the food you’re going to eat for breakfast. You have to think about these
things we’re discussing. You have to become aware of yourself, of who you really are. To understand that I am not this body, I am not this mind that tells me all these things all day long. I am neither person, place nor thing. I am pure awareness. I am absolute reality. I am total freedom. Not limited to the circumference of my body, not limited to anything. I expand in all directions. My essence is in the plants, in the trees, in the sky, in the people, in the animals, I am all of these things. The whole universe is my Self. Everything emanates out of my mind. Everything comes out of me. This whole creation is my creation. If I want to find this is true I have to go deep, deep within myself. I must dive deeper within myself and find the source of my being which is consciousness.
As I go deeper within myself, the whole universe follows suit and the whole universe dives deep in me, everything goes within me, everything. That’s where it came. It goes back to where it came, to the source of all life itself. I am that Self. The one Self, unblemished, pure, all pervading. I and the father are one, I and the Self are one. I am that one! You must talk to yourself that way. As you talk to yourself this way the ego begins to listen. The ego begins to diminish. Until one day it will disappear entirely completely.
Then you will discover you have never been the ego, you’ve never been human, you’ve never been anything. You have discovered your nothingness and the you as a feeling that disappears also. There is no you left that has discovered anything. You is gone. There is just is-ness. You have become is. Is you is or is you ain’t my baby. Remember that song?
(laughter)
Why will you not admit that you’re free? Why will you not accept your is-ness? If you only knew how beautiful you were. The true Self. If you only realize the joy that you are, the love that you are, the peace that you are. You have no problems, no worries. There never were any problems or worries. The worries and problems simply appear to you because you didn’t know who you were but now you know who you are. You are the truth, the whole truth. You are the light. You are the way. What appears to be your body disappears, nowhere, like a dream, and the world follows suite. That is not you, you know this now. Never will you be disturbed again by anything, by anybody. How can you be hurt if you’re not hurtable? What can possibly hurt you? Only when there is certain wants and needs that you think you don’t have can you be hurtable and you can only do this by comparing yourself to other people. When you realize that your Self is totally sufficient, totally sufficient, there is nothing missing, then you become divinely happy but when you believe you are a human being, then you have problems, wants, desires. So the secret is not in getting rid of your desires or wants or longings, but awakening from deep sleep of mortality. When you awaken from the deep sleep of mortality all your wants and needs and desires will be gone. They will disappear by themselves.
Look to yourself. Learn to worship yourself, to bow to yourself! You are the one!
Never forget this. You are that one that has always been and will always be, it is wonderful. There is nothing you have to seek any longer. You have heard the truth, you have seen the truth, be satisfied with it. If you are the one then there is nowhere to go, there is nothing to do. You’re just happy all the time. When you recognize that you are the entire universe what is there to do? Where can you possibly go? It’s all within you. Everything is within you, everything. Why not accept this for yourself? Your needs will be fulfilled of their own accord. Everything will unfold the way it’s supposed to in your life. Give it a chance. It is when you are peaceful that things resolve themselves in the right way for the good of all concerned. When you are at total peace with yourself. You are the power, the totality of everything. Accept this about yourself. Say to yourself, “I am that I am. I am absolute reality, nirvana. I have never been anything less than that.” Everything I see and behold with my eyes, I have created myself. If I do not like what I see I simply uncreate it by letting it go back into my mind where it began. I am in control of my world, my destiny, and it is all good. It is all wonderful. I am at peace with myself and with this world in which I live. For after all the world is my creation and I am infinite love. Subsequently everything I see is love. I see love everywhere.
In the clouds in the sky, in the tree, in the birds, in people, in the animals. I am able to see this because I am that myself. Nothing and no one can hurt me any longer. For I have become unhurtable. No one can show me any evil anywhere because evil is not a power. It has no validity. It is just wrong thinking. All is well, all is right, all is good. If you truly wish to repent just sit in silent meditation and see that perfect reality within, for all manner of evil merely arise in erroneous thought and like the morning dew before the rising sun can completely be eliminated through the magnificent wisdom and light. You are that light. You are that wisdom. And all is well. Feel free to ask questions.
Fred (SF): Something crossed my mind. (R: Yes Fred.) What happens if I have a desire, that means that something might be different than it already is, and there is no way that something can be different than it already is at any one time. Also that brings in the matter of time which is also a mental creation. So it’s really kind of a waste of time to have a desire. (R: Exactly.) The trick is to stop it.
R: You stop desires by understanding who we really are. When you understand your true nature desire cease by themselves. Desires only come to human beings. How can the infinite have a desire? The infinite reality is the whole universe, everything. It can’t have a desire because it’s fulfilling itself completely all of the time. So only a human being can have a desire and since you are not a human being Fred you have no desire. You are Fred a non-human being. Congratulations. (SF: Thank you.) (laughs) SH: You can only have a desire if you imagine you are what you aren’t? (R: Exactly.) And insist on it?
R: When you stop imagining everything, you’ll be free. You’ll have no desires, nothing. As long as we have imagination this is what is called false imagination in Buddhism. We imagine that the world is real, we imagine we see people the way they look, we imagine things are going on in this world. In reality there is nothing going on, nothing is going on. Nothing is happening. It is your mind that moves not the world.
Fred (SF): This is the world of infinite possibilities. (R: Okay.) On the relative plane or any other plane, anything that I see in the dream or drug experience, delirium tremors, it’s all equally real or equally unreal whichever you want to look at it.
R: That’s true yes. It’s up to you, that’s your free choice, that’s your freewill. That’s the only freewill you’ve got. To be able to take an honest look at life and say, “I accept this and I reject this.” That’s the freedom you’ve got. (SF: In AA (alcoholics anonymous) we had this thing called the serenity prayer, it said, “God grant me this serenity to accept the things I cannot change. What matters is the thing’s what it is, I can’t change nothing.) So why try? (SF: I should quit.) Let go of everything. (SF: That is what you keep telling us to do.) There is nothing you have to change Fred. Change takes care of itself without you trying to help. (SF: You’re better at that than I’d be doing.) Change is for whom? For the ego, for the body, for the mind, go beyond change. Throw all your change away and keep a dollar bill.
ST: Robert I’ve been reading some stuff on quantum theory and they are proving today, the new science of quantum theory, everything that you’ve been saying, advising us about ten times a year…that it’s all an illusion in a sense that it’s a giant hologram, everything that is here is a creation of everyone’s own mind. What we’re saying tonight that there is some sort of ??? which will be sort of an everyday understanding, coming from a scientific point of view.
R: Not really because science can only go so far. When you go into places like consciousness or absolute reality, there are no instruments to measure this. Science has to be measured to say how it works. But this is beyond science. They have nothing to measure consciousness with. No one can measure consciousness. No one can measure absolute reality. A human being can never be able to do this. No scientist will ever be able to measure it.
You can go a certain way and say what you just said. Everything is in a state of flux. Everything is composed of hydrogen atoms. (ST: I think that the point of what you’re saying is that there is only one thing here there is no one to believe this. I’m an individual, we think there is an individual. There is only one thing here. And that’s ??? in a materialistic sense. I think they’re going beyond that with the hologram.) To know the absolute reality, there has to be a direct experience. You have to experience it directly yourself. (ST: Yeah, yes) Again there is no instrument that can measure it. The finite can never know the infinite.
SH: That Self power gets lost trying to measure the infinite… (tape break) R: …nothing is really happening. It’s all mass hypnosis. It’s all hallucination. Consciousness never made anything happen. Because what you call consciousness doesn’t exist anyway. But for the sake of talking and explaining things we bring out all of these words. Like the bible teaches creation coming from Adam and Eve. The Upanishads tells us that Brahman created everything. Everything is Brahman. But this is for the sake of people wanting to know. When the ego wants to know there will be someone to write about it to tell you what happened. But when you have transcended then you will be free there will be nobody to tell you anything because you’ll go beyond everything. So listen in the silence. Go beyond everything that you ever understood and you’ll be free…
(tape ends)
Absätze ohne Sprecherpräfix gehören dem zuletzt genannten Sprecher — so steht es im Buch, wo der Präfix nur den Anfang einer Rede markiert. Die Zuordnung ist eine Folgerung dieser Ausgabe. Namen in Klammern sind aus dem Text erschlossen: sicher belegt sind SM = Mary, SF = Fred, SJ = Jay, SC = Nate, wahrscheinlich SG = Glen, SR = Jorge. Alle anderen Kürzel bleiben stehen, weil der Beleg nicht trägt.